Sunday, November 25, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I'd like to take a few minutes to say thank you to you.....
You see... I've been a bit absent from my blog. The truth is, I have been working through some difficult times and emotions. My family's 'calendar' is clear through most of the year, except for Miss M's birthday at the end of May. But come Halloween, the roller coaster ride begins. For me this year, it has meant the anniversary of my mother's passing and her burial (on Halloween), my first anniversary officially divorced (after 29 years), my son's birthday, my birthday, throw in Thanksgiving, Christmas, and the ex's birthday after the new year.
As a dear friend, J, recently said... 'You're not in the 'fight or flight' mode for the first time in years, so now you are feeling all of those emotions that you put to the side because you were in 'fight or flight'."
The holidays are portrayed by 'Madison Avenue' as a Norman Rockwell vacation...a time of love,
family, traditions and joy. Oh, how I ache for all of those things in my heart...in my being. But the truth is that, for many, there is also heartache, loss and sadness. I am working through all of these emotions...from love and joy, to loss and sadness. I am sure that I am probably not alone.
I want to thank.... you.
You have patiently allowed me to take time to privately work through so many emotions. You have checked in on me to just say 'hi' and see how I was doing. My dear girl, Paige... thank you for your hug and your checking in on me... you will never know how tender and kind those gestures were and what they meant to me. All of you have allowed me time...and for that, I am grateful.
So, I thank you for your patience. I thank you for you kindness. I thank you for bearing with me. I thank you for your 'friendship'.
May your day unfold a special treasure for you tomorrow. You are most deserving of it!
pondered by Carol Dunton at 6:07 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
I know it's been a while since I last wrote a post. I think about it. But don't seem to have the inspiration to write. I believe this silence is from inner reflection. October is a wonderful, beautiful month. My favorite month, I do believe. But it is also a month in which many loved ones have passed.... in years past, and in this present one. So, perhaps, it has become a bit quiet. A bit reflective. A bit private.
I think of you, my reader, almost every day. I think of how I have not posted for a good week or so. I think of how some of you might think I've quit writing. I think of how my spirit has not had anything inspirational to say... or to share.
Then I have a thought of 'I have to post SOMEthing! It's been so long! Think! Think of something! Anything... who cares if it comes from your heart, your passion!?'
But then... my spirit reminds me to be true to myself....
So quiet it has been....
pondered by Carol Dunton at 11:45 AM