Ebb and Flow

Karma....

be it good or bad...it seems to be around us.

I apparently ordered a 'super-size' order of the bad, for the last week has been a rather trying one... a combination of odd events that all piled up lead to one big heap... such as:

- the erroneous assumption and subsequent activities by someone on the internet to bring discord my way

- learning of the death of an aquaintance's husband. I'm not easily, truly 'shocked'. This time I was...and in truth, still am. I still am.

- still trying to take better care of my health and turn this situation around so that I feel better

- further acceptance of the dissolution of what was to be forever

- for some 'little girl' reason, missing my mom more than usual

...... and a few other things

I woke up yesterday unable to move my head to the right...my neck felt so pulled! After taking a few minutes to breathe and listen carefully to my body, I realized that my whole upper back, my shoulders from one side to the other and up the back of my neck into my head are just racked in pain! I mean to the point that I feel like I am carrying a bag of rocks in those areas. I feel like my head, my sinuses, my eyes are congested. Maybe stress has settled into me? I called up the place where I get theraputic massages and I made an appointment for Friday afternoon....for 1 1/2 hours worth of work on this bod o' mine. I have a little get-together planned on Satuday, so I will clean house Friday morning and then go get, literally!, worked on!

But with the crash of waves, calm ripples follow.

As I drove to pick up Miss M from work last night, I took a look to the southern sky. There, in it's big arched stage, was the constellation Scorpio.... just as magnificent as ever! And this guy wasn't alone.... I believe it was Venus that was saddling up to its left, like a scorpion holding a flashlight. Looking at this creation instantly sends me up the highway to that little corner of Earth that smiles for me, for many a night I have silently held the night forest in my stare out my bedroom window, with Scorpio as my companion for whatever gift the forest offers out of its inky density. To my right, the cresent-slivered moon slowly fell to the Earth; starting out luminiscent and creamy...only to blush as she slipped below horizon's cloak.

Five days of school left, then I'll REALLY be on vacation! Sprinkler systems slowly being resolved, and the facade of England and the mountain forests coming back to life again (in a desert climate that is hitting 111 degrees today)! Bills all paid. Gas in my car. Food in my kitchen. My children are healthy. A job that I adore and which enriches me beyond. Friends that I love and cherish and am so dang blessed to have!

Yup....

the tides are receeding and gifts are at my feet....